At work

Almost cried again at work the other day. When will this end?
My phone is cut off, havent payed the bill. Hopefully will be back on before the weekend...

News on the money

Yup, im getting it. But we made a deal. D will give me my vacation ticket and then 3000 crowns in cash when he gets back from Africa. The ticket is about 8000, so im getting a good deal, he really owes me 5-6000 in total. I should be getting that shit for free, but what the hell. I wanna get rid of him, and i know he owes other people money, and i know he is broke. So this is probably the best Ill do. Im happy im getting anything.

He sent me two text, asking me again when i wanna leave Sweden. I sent him my dates, but before that i asked if i can trust him, being that he hates me now. I cussed him out bad and loud at the party, and i was crazy drunk, so im pretty sure i offended A in many ways too. I dont give a shit, she is lucky i didnt beat the crap out of her.
He answered, "i dont hate you". Id love to hear, face to face, what he has to say about this whole thing. When he is ready. Im still not over him. BLAH!

A little hungover

But happy!

i laughed so much last night! The new years dinner was great, they had a cake and sang for me and everything:)
after that we went out, two dance floors, good music, good friends, lots of dancing. There were so many of us we lost each other every now and then, but i think everyone had a good night!

On another note, D sent me a text during the day. See, i emailed him two days before since he wasnt answering my texts about the money that i want back. So i threatened him saying if he wants revenge, thats what he will get if i dont have my money in two weeks (im going on vacation in about four weeks) cause that seems to be the only language he speaks.
So he sent me a text saying he will organize the plane ticket for me, just send me the dates i wanna fly. Im gonna accept that as interest on the money he owes me, cause i still want my cash, i need to pay bills. We´ll see what he says. Lord knows he feels bad now, cause he would have ignored my email if he didnt, i know that.

I had family and friends over yesterday for cake and champagne, and one of mine and A´s mutual friends were there. This is a girl that i love, but we dont hang out that much, she is more A´s friend. Of course, when everyone had left but her and some other mutual friends, we started talking about D. I then realized that all the dirt i was throwing out there on D would get right back to A when she finds out this friend of ours was here. One more point for me:)
A needs to know who she is dating, the more shit she knows about him, the better. Maybe they´ll brake up:)
that would be lovely.
A apparently called a friend of ours after that infamous party at Q´s house to hear what i had told her when we were in a room together. I was talking shit of course! She knows that. I dont give a fuck. There is nothing i could say about A that could possibly hurt her as much as she has hurt me, so i dont care what i say, i dont care what she knows ive said, cause it aint nothing i wouldnt say to her face anyway.
Can she just move out of the country?

D was in an African country when he texted me. I can only imagine what he is doing there. Like, why would you go to that country? You have no connection to it, several other African countries, but not that one... So strange. I only think about the dude i met when you were "on vacation" for 30 days this summer and i visited you. He was also on "vacation" and he was from that country... and his "vacation" was for importing stuff...
D should be desperate enough to do some stupid shit like that right now. He owes money to at least three more people i know. And i know he owes more money to others, since i have some inside info...

oh well, im glad he is not my problem anymore.
Then why am i still upset with him and A? Why cant i get over it? I dont want him back. I dont understand myself.