...im mad at him too. He was my friend, he said what we have even when we are not lovers, is something special, that he will always be my friend. But friends dont do this. You have no idea what it means to be a friend.
What i gave up for you. Cause you were my friend. Its unbelievable, but now i think you tricked me into it. You came with me for the first visit to the hospital, making me think that you would actually come and meet me for my next. Telling me youd be an hour or so late, just so I would take that first pill and it would not be reversible. You knew that if I knew you wouldnt show up, i would not have done it, and you would have a son. Or another daughter. But as long as you made sure I took that first pill, youd be home free. Then you could run and hide.
I had forgiven you, you know that.
But now it all comes back. You digged that shit right up again. Cause i wanted that baby. I did. You know i did.
Thats why im mad. The baby. The money. The fact that i saved you, and did my best to save you multiple times, but you do this to me. I did all that, and you feel you can just trade me in for A. You can toss me aside and claim "it just happened" when you knew damn well how small it would make me feel, how it would break me down, how it would make me feel like i did it all in vain and that it didnt mean shit to you. That I didnt mean shit to you. And you thought that im always so nice, ill just gobble up your "im sorries" and move on.
Well guess what?
Its not that easy.
And im cryin like a baby.
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